For those of you who dont know me, my name is Sean Bullington. I live in Las Vegas, and have most of my life. Many people have stood out and continue to stand out in my life. I am blessed by every person I know and most people I meet.
I am a child of GOD.
Recently, I made a very difficult cross country move to Las Vegas in hopes of a better job, a car, and a steady place to live. Things in Florida (where i moved from) were not exactly ideal for a guy like me to begin his adult life. I was addicted to just about anything i could get my hands on, and I knew it. Everyday seemed to be a battle. with every new day brought new challenges like: "how am i going to feed myself?" "will i make it to the food pantry downtown in time to get a couple canned goods? afterall, i dont have a car" and "is it even worth waking up today?" I had a job, and a good one at that, but this wasnt enough for me. i started mindlessly spending every dime i had on drugs and alcahol to a point where i got paid on friday, and my paycheck was gone by saturday morning. I knew i was messing up, but i thought "im young!" and "if my boss doesnt notice, why does it matter?"
soon enough, my life caught up to me. my boss noticed the rediculous way i was beginning to become comfortable with coming to work, and i lost my job. now like most people, i was mad, and in denial that ANY of this was my fault. i started questioning and even cursing jesus. "WHY???" "WHY GOD?"
Shortly after losing my job, i lost the only thing i had left... my home. My world fell apart. All sense of security i once had went flying out the window. i was miserable.
At this time, i was three days away from eviction, and one day away from losing my mind. I knew i had to leave. So, without any time wasted, i made my mind that i would move back to Las Vegas. Doing this, however would prove harder than i once thought. A bus ticket from Port Charlotte, FL to Las Vegas, NV would cost eighty dollars. "EIGHTY DOLLARS??? where a
m i going to get that kind of money?" (to me, this was a TON of money... basically, that was food, and cigarettes for about two weeks.) i decided i would get out of this town no matter how long i had to save. well, i ended up having to save for 4 months.
So, i bought my ticket. "DEPARTING 2:20 PM 4.4.08 from Port Charlotte, FL ARRIVING 7:30 PM 4.6.08" i remember my ticket as clear as day. afterall, this was my ticket to a new life! or was it?
Eventually, after 2 days of delays, i arrived in las vegas and wasted no time getting my life started. i had an extra eh... i'd say 50 to 75 bucks that i quickly put to use in buying a cheap hotel, and a newspaper... i scanned the paper and found a place to stay where i wouldnt have to pay up-front, and a potential job. things began picking up for me quickly. i worked out a deal to buy a car, and i had a steady job and home. I WAS MISERABLE.
I started to realize that i was getting or already had everything i've ever dreamed of in life, yet somehow this wasnt enough. i was doing all of this on my own. i had no strength, i was open to any and all peer pressure that would come my way. i began to surround myself with the same type of people i had in port charlotte months before. i was in a spiral and it was going DOWN quickly.
I dont know what it was that made me wake up at 7 AM this particular sunday, and i dont know if i ever will, but i woke up empty, and sad. i knew i had to do something. so i got up, got in my car, and headed to
an unfamilar place.... CHURCH. the sermon was awsome at Central, but what really spoke to me was when we began worship. i didnt know any of the songs, but somehow i found myself singing.. i closed my eyes and hoped for the best. i began praying. before i could even say lord, he was there. a tingling sensation SHOT through my body and i felt as light as i ever have. for that one moment, that sunday morning, i was CARELESS. I WAS HAPPY! i was one with the lord. i began to cry. i couldnt stop. before i knew it, the service was over, and everyone was leaving. i missed a whole half hour of the service. i had lost myself in jesus' love and have been lost ever since.
Life is looking up for me now. i try each day to never look back, and work for tomorrow. hopefully, as you continue to follow this blog, i can share with you all of the ways jesus is working in, and continually blessing my life.
I am a child of GOD.
Recently, I made a very difficult cross country move to Las Vegas in hopes of a better job, a car, and a steady place to live. Things in Florida (where i moved from) were not exactly ideal for a guy like me to begin his adult life. I was addicted to just about anything i could get my hands on, and I knew it. Everyday seemed to be a battle. with every new day brought new challenges like: "how am i going to feed myself?" "will i make it to the food pantry downtown in time to get a couple canned goods? afterall, i dont have a car" and "is it even worth waking up today?" I had a job, and a good one at that, but this wasnt enough for me. i started mindlessly spending every dime i had on drugs and alcahol to a point where i got paid on friday, and my paycheck was gone by saturday morning. I knew i was messing up, but i thought "im young!" and "if my boss doesnt notice, why does it matter?"
soon enough, my life caught up to me. my boss noticed the rediculous way i was beginning to become comfortable with coming to work, and i lost my job. now like most people, i was mad, and in denial that ANY of this was my fault. i started questioning and even cursing jesus. "WHY???" "WHY GOD?"
Shortly after losing my job, i lost the only thing i had left... my home. My world fell apart. All sense of security i once had went flying out the window. i was miserable.
At this time, i was three days away from eviction, and one day away from losing my mind. I knew i had to leave. So, without any time wasted, i made my mind that i would move back to Las Vegas. Doing this, however would prove harder than i once thought. A bus ticket from Port Charlotte, FL to Las Vegas, NV would cost eighty dollars. "EIGHTY DOLLARS??? where a
m i going to get that kind of money?" (to me, this was a TON of money... basically, that was food, and cigarettes for about two weeks.) i decided i would get out of this town no matter how long i had to save. well, i ended up having to save for 4 months.So, i bought my ticket. "DEPARTING 2:20 PM 4.4.08 from Port Charlotte, FL ARRIVING 7:30 PM 4.6.08" i remember my ticket as clear as day. afterall, this was my ticket to a new life! or was it?
Eventually, after 2 days of delays, i arrived in las vegas and wasted no time getting my life started. i had an extra eh... i'd say 50 to 75 bucks that i quickly put to use in buying a cheap hotel, and a newspaper... i scanned the paper and found a place to stay where i wouldnt have to pay up-front, and a potential job. things began picking up for me quickly. i worked out a deal to buy a car, and i had a steady job and home. I WAS MISERABLE.
I started to realize that i was getting or already had everything i've ever dreamed of in life, yet somehow this wasnt enough. i was doing all of this on my own. i had no strength, i was open to any and all peer pressure that would come my way. i began to surround myself with the same type of people i had in port charlotte months before. i was in a spiral and it was going DOWN quickly.
I dont know what it was that made me wake up at 7 AM this particular sunday, and i dont know if i ever will, but i woke up empty, and sad. i knew i had to do something. so i got up, got in my car, and headed to
an unfamilar place.... CHURCH. the sermon was awsome at Central, but what really spoke to me was when we began worship. i didnt know any of the songs, but somehow i found myself singing.. i closed my eyes and hoped for the best. i began praying. before i could even say lord, he was there. a tingling sensation SHOT through my body and i felt as light as i ever have. for that one moment, that sunday morning, i was CARELESS. I WAS HAPPY! i was one with the lord. i began to cry. i couldnt stop. before i knew it, the service was over, and everyone was leaving. i missed a whole half hour of the service. i had lost myself in jesus' love and have been lost ever since.Life is looking up for me now. i try each day to never look back, and work for tomorrow. hopefully, as you continue to follow this blog, i can share with you all of the ways jesus is working in, and continually blessing my life.
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Hey my nephew Sean! You ARE awesome, different or not! But I am delighted that Jesus has touched the deepest part of your heart. I pray you carry that with you. BUT, when the touch times come, when you don't FEEL his presence and closeness, that's when FAITH comes in!! So hang in there! I am so excited for you and love that you made a BLOG!!! We're so cool, aren't we? I am trying to "follow" your blog but it hasn't let me so far but I will keep trying! LOVE YOU!!! Auntie Laura
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